i’ve finally found a better solution to cutting, and it’s watching Stay Strong

I met Demi in my dream, and it was so perfect.

my family weren’t there… it was just me and Demi and a photographer but when I told Demi in needed to talk, he nodded and walked off.

when it was just me and Demi in the room, she held my hands so I felt relaxed and I opened up to her about everything. when I was talking to her I had my head down so I had no idea how she was reacting to it but there was a moment when I couldn’t carry on because my throat felt swollen from the tears I was trying to hold back. she hugged me tight and I let out all my tears, and I knew she was crying too. which made me feel so weird…. I MADE DEMI LOVATO CRY! she pulled away from the hug and held my hands again. she looked into my eyes and kept telling me to stay strong and remember that I’m beautiful. which made me cry even more. I told her how she was such an inspiration to me and that my friends and family never really got why, because I had never opened up to them, in the way I opened up to Demi. I told her that on many occasions, she’d saved my life just by simply appearing as a poster on my wall or by me listening to her music. she cried again, so much.

then she signed my stuff and we fixed our faces up so we could have our photos taken. we had a few, a normal smiling one, a gangster one, a hugging one and stupid duck face pouting one. just before I left, she told me that our conversation was all recorded which kinda freaked me out but she said, if I’m ever having trouble again, I was to watch it in hope it would make me feel better.

never in my life have I wanted to meet her more than I want to now.